very nervous

Well as I said before my parents are in the middle of a divorce and my mom moved back to Kentucky. My dad lives only a couple of streets over from me but he hardly ever calls or comes by unless he needs something. So to my surprise my dad actually bought me a crib mattress which I needed badly since I dont have long left until I have this baby. But of course when he comes by he brings up "he needs to know what Cory and I are doing about the house" being that we rent from him. I couldnt believe that he couldnt be my dad for just a few minutes instead of acting like my landlord. I miss having a dad. I have a wonderful mom though. She would be here for the baby to be born if she could but she doesnt have the money and I can understand that. I miss my mom very much. I am so nervous about having a c-section though. It is truly the most nerve wrecking thing. I am blessed to have the support system that I have here. I have great friends. Corys family has also been great. They have welcomed me in with open arms and treated me like family. I have never had that before. I have chose not to tell my dad when im going in to the hospital being I dont want him there. I have been so stressed out im terrified. My brother and his wife are coming down though so that makes it better. Cory and I found a outfit for the baby to wear home though. I usually ask his opinion because he always find nice things to wear. The outfit will probably swallow him but I couldnt find anything else. I want to have pictures of him done after he leaves the hospital. Cory has without a doubt been my backbone through all of this. I thank God for the people he has put in my life. Miranda (corys sister) has been great also. I love getting to talk to her and being around her and her husband. I hope one day that I can have a marriage like they do. For now I am happy that I can be around Cory and he can come home to me everyday. We have decided the babys name is Dalton Cole. Cory picked Dalton and I picked Cole. -Some people brought their babies to Jesus for him to place his hands on them. The disciples saw them and scolded them for doing so, but Jesus called the children to him and said, "Let the children come to me and do not stop them, because the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Remember this! Whoever does not receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it." luke 18 15-17